Chapter 13: Take me home.
That time, in the month before we want to college entrance exams, Lao Zhang invited us to dinner, the table everyone drank a lot of wine, we thought of these three years of happy high school life is coming to an end, inevitably all have some feelings. In the end, plus the old Zhang and old Jia, thirteen of us are drunk, each other say drunken silly words, the old Jia grabbed Yang Xu's hand to say what to recognize him as a goddaughter, Yang Xu stuttering scolded: "people are pure men." We all laughed uncontrollably. At the end of the night, Du Feiyu drank too much and said she wouldn't take the car. I accompanied her on her walk home, since her home wasn't very far away.
It is summer, even at night, but also the humidity and sultry, dim streetlights I helped her walk step by step, the road pedestrians are now very few, the small county is this way. At night there is no nightlife, after dark, most of the home to home, there are temples still temple.
Originally should be very moody picture, but by the damn mosquitoes to stir up, to say that I hate is this disgusting blood-sucking animals, summer around you in front of the back of the circle, while you do not pay attention to suck your body fluids, which is not enough, but also to your body to spit poison, typical of the full of scolding the cook after the scripture to beat the monks.
I used my hands to drive away these damned little animals, and said to Du Feiyu: "Honey, why don't we take a taxi and go." Du Feiyu's face was flushed, obviously from the effects of alcohol, but in all conscience, it was much better looking than her usual white face. She shook her head and said to me, "No, if you don't want to accompany me, just go home first."
Catch up with these mosquitoes do not bite you, alas, to say also evil, I was born with mosquitoes, this point in my college in the dormitory has been verified countless times. Four people in the dormitory, the summer window open to sleep, the results of the next day when I got up and found that I was bitten one night eighteen bags, while the other three are safe and sound. From then on to the summer time, the other bed brother is often very enthusiastic to ask me to go to their dormitory to sleep, ostensibly from the deep friendship for the enhancement of classmates only to see, but I know that in fact it is in order to let me go to attract mosquitoes.
Alas, since she has said this, I am also embarrassed to say something else. Let's just go and consider it a blood donation. To know that she is now like the emperor his second grandfather ah, said the words I dare not listen to it? I can only shut my mouth and continue to assist her to walk in silence. Walked a paragraph, she violently pushed me away and ran to the street lamp, vomited.
I thought, this unlucky child, can not drink for why still drink so much old. So rushed forward and gently patted her back, and so she vomited almost the time, I took out of my schoolbag in the morning leftover half a bottle of mineral water to give her mouth rinse, here again poor a mouth, speaking of mineral water, we collectively known as pure water. Here is another joke, high school once went to the field sketching, in the train station to buy a bottle of Kangshifu mineral water, and so on the car Yang Xu thirsty, I handed him the bottle of water, he drank a mouthful of it and suddenly changed his face. But the car are people, he can not spit it out ah, swallowed and told me that this what a broken water how a bleach flavor it, I took the bottle from his hand to take a closer look, leaning. 'Kang Shuai Fu mineral water'! This is too cottage right, packaging and Master Kong the same, is not the same name, handsome Fu. This which big brother came up with the damage trick. Enough grandchildren, with the nose a smell, really very strong bleach flavor, water and impurities. I thought to myself that this is his grandfather's Kang Shuai Fu, but also really 'pure earned water'.
Back to the main story, I handed her the water, remind her to drink slowly, do not choke, she rinsed her mouth, stood up is already staggering almost unsteady. I was busy helping her to the side of the road to the pedestrians to rest their feet on the long chair, she sat on the chair head against my shoulder, quiet down, I was sweating and panting. To know that she is not light ah, how to say also have to more than ninety pounds it. My small body of one meter seven to move her is simply exhausted. But when my breath is a little calmer after the discovery of the wrong, what is wrong? The atmosphere is not right ah, I just felt her head now resting on my shoulder, while a hand is on my thigh gently caressing!
Hey, hey, you know usually even want to hold her hand down to be met with her blank stare ah, today this is what happened? The two of us are so close at the moment, let's put it this way, if I want to kiss her right now, I can guarantee that this series of actions will not take more than two seconds from the time I make my move to the time I make my move to the time I make my move to the time I make my move to the time I make my move. Smell from her body exudes the smell of wine mixed with the smell of body fragrance, I gulped, my heart thought: is this the rumors in the jianghu after drinking ******?
Maybe, tonight I can say goodbye to this shameful virgin body and step into the wonderful world of adults in one fell swoop! En, first see her reaction. Just when I am colorful and ready to touch her hand first to cast a stone, I feel her breathing sound change. Then I felt my shoulder get wet.
Holy shit! She's not trying to seduce me, is she? She's not baiting me, is she? She wouldn't be tempting me, would she? She's not -------- crying, is she?
I looked down at her, she really is crying, and crying is so sad, although she did not cry out, she died biting this her right hand, this situation, my heart can not help but inexplicably sad. She seemed to notice that I was looking at her, said to me in an extremely calm tone, "Don't look."
As she was usually very strong and cold, this was the first time I saw her cry, I didn't know what to do, I could only raise my head again after giving an "oh", letting her wipe her tears and snot on my T-shirt. The streetlight was still on, the atmosphere was quiet again, you could only hear her faint sobbing sound, as if we were the only two people left between heaven and earth.
After a long time, she spoke up and said in a quiet tone, "You're a good man."
I'm a good person? I said to her in a half-joking tone, "Of course I know I'm a good person, because only good people are bullied in this world." But I really didn't get what that meant coming from her at that point.
She took her head off my shoulder and looked up at the night sky, and where I come from you can see a lot of stars at night. It's beautiful, beautiful. I didn't say anything, I just looked at her like that, and I don't know why this image became somewhat sacred and inviolable in my then young mind.
She then said: "You know what? I was raped when I was a kid."
What? I looked at her, thinking she said this is not drunk, she saw me did not say anything and then continued to say quietly, the voice because just after the relationship between crying, is so hoarse.
"He was my boyfriend in junior high school. At that time I was very afraid, ran to the house when I kept crying, kept crying. My father asked me what's wrong, I don't dare to say, my father saw my unkempt appearance and understood, he ran to the man's home to beat the man after sent to the police station, and then I transferred to this place, you know what? I hate men, I hate all men."
My mind went blank, I didn't know what to say, I could only continue to look at her, I don't know what a normal boy should do if he meets this kind of aftermath, but now I just want to comfort her but I don't know how to open my mouth.
She looked at me for a while, I was a little afraid to look at her, because I felt as if her eyes could penetrate my heart. She just looked at me and murmured, "You know what? Since I came here, I haven't communicated with anyone, but these three years here have been my happiest. Because of you guys, because of you. I look at you all so happy every day, and my heart has gradually become more cheerful. Because of you, you know?"
I know what ah, was she asked this panic in my heart. Continue speechless, she went on to say: "You are a good person, Cui Zuofei. In the beginning I was just sad because I was alone, so I asked you to be my boyfriend. But I was playing you for a fool. I thought it wouldn't be long before you couldn't stand my temper and left, but you didn't. You still, still ------ "She didn't finish her sentence and started crying again, I didn't know where the courage came from at this time, but I actually hugged her in my arms. Tightly held, she did not struggle, just cried and said: "more than a year, you are still the same as the beginning of the same to me, tolerate me. You fool. Are you worth it?"
Worth it or not, this I'm not sure, it's true, I may just belong to the kind of rebellious fool it, may have experienced after life and death, I became want to cherish everything around me. Or maybe I don't want to have any more regrets, after hearing these words from her, I suddenly felt that there is a possibility again, that is, I really fell in love with her. I don't know why. When I see her cry, I feel that I want to cry too. That's all.
I let go of her, looked into her eyes, and said to her, "Don't think about the past, as long as you're alive, everything will pass, trust me."
She froze for a moment, then looked at me, wondering if what I said was too deep, or if it just didn't feel right coming from someone who usually doesn't have a clue what I'm talking about. She laughed, smiled through her tears and said, "You fool."
What happened next was something I couldn't have imagined, I felt a blackness in my eyes as if she had covered my eyes, followed by a cool, soft touch on my lips. My goodness! What kind of feeling is this! Too soulful. No sooner had I tried to savor it for a moment longer than my eyes lit up again and I opened them to find that she had stood up and was smiling at me.
At this time the wind picked up, making this sweltering night turn a little cool breeze blowing her bangs, her ponytail, and the white and slightly wide T-shirt she was wearing, the street lamp she was so thin. She smiled at me and said, "It's windy, take me home."
I licked my lips, a whiff of alcohol, while my heart started pounding.
