Chapter 20: The fall
Glasses woman see more than ten of us are almost painted, table by table one by one to see, after seeing them tell them what kind of psychological state of each person, how to go to perfect their own psychology. Hear those dinosaurs female after listening to the glasses female explanation of the mouth opened into a O-shaped, and then cover the face to say too accurate la look, I shudder. Big sisters, what have you become and still pretend to be cute?
Glasses woman came to my table, looking at the messy paper I painted. Half a day did not speak, she looked at my painting on the tree hanging rope after softly asked me: "This is a swing?"
I looked at her and didn't know how to answer, so I smiled and said, "It's a swing, but sometimes it's also used for hanging."
She was flabbergasted, but still pointed to the house on the white paper and told me softly, "This house is where people grow up, it projects your inner security, this person is projecting your self-image and integrity of personality, and you're drawing a person in a house with poisonous snakes all over the outside. It indicates that you are afraid of the outside world and it makes you insecure. Fear of being hurt."
Crap, that accurate? I was indeed surprised, she pointed to the tree again and said, "Trees symbolize feelings and project people's experience of their environment, you should have been hurt emotionally and ----- if you can't think of anything in the future, you can come to my office to talk to me, don't put yourself into a small space."
And what ah, you haven't told me yet. Isn't that a mouthful to say in the middle of a sentence? I was just about to ask her when class ended and she left without giving me a chance. The large classroom was soon empty, leaving me sitting on a stool staring at this piece of paper.
I didn't realize until years later that the 'House Tree People' game mentioned here is a very famous psychological test, a game that tests a person's mental state through the images drawn by their subconscious mind, and the accuracy rate is quite high. Anyone interested can try it. It's very interesting. Unfortunately at the time I never talked to that female teacher due to loss of face, and as a result she transferred away during my sophomore year.
In the blink of an eye it was the weekend again, and on Saturday night I got a call from a female classmate of mine from high school, her name was Shanshan Dong. She was a kinda outgoing girl in the drawing room in high school, and I never knew that she also went to school in Harbin. It's strange, how did he know my new cell phone number? She told me that old classmates have not seen almost half a year, let me go to her school to play on the weekend. I thought yes, half a year have not seen, I have nothing to do this day, agreed to her.
Sunday morning I took the bus to her school. She is in Harbin, a school in the north of the river to study. As the name suggests, Jiangbei is in the north of the Songhua River, quite a remote place, but there are many universities there, known as Harbin's university city. It was already winter, and the bus windows were covered with a thick layer of ice. I can see outside in a blur. Three or two college couples hand in hand shopping, I can not help but curse: this gang of dogs and men.
Now think about it, that is I really quite some can't eat grapes just want to go up and step on a foot of psychology. Half an hour later, I arrived, get off the car to see, crikey, you see how big this university. More than ten buildings, to what have what, I remembered my only two buildings of the poor XX art base. Alas, this is all life.
I gave Dong Shanshan a phone call, told her I arrived, let her downstairs to pick me up, not a moment, I saw a familiar figure like the school entrance to walk, hit the eye a look, do not say, to say that the high school and the university is really two levels. This girl is beautiful. No, I should say will dress up. She walked to the school entrance, as if she did not find me, from my side walked past also, this girl is really nearsighted. This girl is really nearsighted. She didn't even notice me when she was so close.
Anyway, after seeing my old classmate I was still in a good mood, so I whistled at her and said to her according to my high school habit, "Hey~~ chick, didn't see the grandpa ah, give the grandpa a smile hi~~."
She turned around and looked at me in surprise, as if she couldn't recognize me anymore, she walked up to me and said in surprise, "Cui Zuofei, how come you look like this now, I didn't even dare to recognize you."
Indeed, buddy my current look, a head of disheveled blue hair, some scruffy down jacket, right hand pinky fingernails long and scary. It's almost as bad as those punks who hang around. I'm a far cry from the person I was in high school. Typical of a man who looks like a dog. It would be strange to recognize this.
I can only smile bitterly and say to her: "At a glance you are a foreigner is not it? This is the latest and trendiest outfit of 2006. Mix and match, understand?"
She listened to me or a former high school tone, haha laughed: "Okay you, is not encountered what troublesome children? Go, sister first take you to dinner."
Said she did not avoid suspicion, directly sat on my arm to her school's small restaurant to go. Pedestrians on the road all cast a strange look at us. Probably took us as a couple, but I could see that it wasn't a look of envy. Rather, it's the kind of eyes that see a good cabbage being given to a pig.
Shit, isn't it just that I haven't washed my hair for three days and it's a bit messy? It's just that I haven't washed my pants for two weeks and they're a little dirty. Why are you all looking at me like this? If not for Dong Shanshan holding my hand, I really want to go up and smack her.
After ordering in the restaurant, Dong Shanshan knew that I love to drink, so she asked for two more bottles of beer to drink with me. She held her cheeks with her hands. And from the new up and down looked me up and down some after, smiled and asked me: "How do you mix into this? Seeing me as an old classmate is heartbreaking for you."
I drained my glass of wine in one gulp, sighed, and smiled bitterly at her, "It's hard to explain."
I told her what had happened from the beginning of the supplementary college application until now, she listened with interest at first, but she couldn't laugh as she listened.
After I finished, I asked for two more bottles of beer. I found Dong Shanshan looking at me with a very special look, as if her female comfort instinct was about to kick in. It made me furtive. She sighed and said, "It's really hard for you too. You're both good friends of mine, but I can't blame anyone for this, isn't that what this relationship thing is all about?"
Of course I know it is this time, or what else can I do, find Du Feiyu revenge? Don't be ridiculous. I said with a bitter smile as I poured the wine, "This is all my own fault, no one to blame, this is the fate of ah."
Wait, what did I just say? It's fate? Is this really fate? I suddenly thought of what Uncle Nine had told me, that people who cultivate Taoism have 'five evils and three deficiencies' in their lives. Has it come true for me? No, according to the theory, the old without a wife is a widower, the old without a husband is a widow, the old without a son is a loner, the young without a father is a loner, and the body is sick and incomplete is disabled. And the three deficiencies of 'money, life and power' do not match my situation ah?
Here to say a word, people if encountered any dramatic common sense can not explain things, often will be pushed to the ghosts and gods of fate, but I now this basically clear set of destiny can not be found in a reasonable explanation, how can this not make me feel helpless.
In fact, I'm quite grateful to Dong Shanshan, because this is the first time since I went to college that I've told someone what's on my mind, and I really feel quite relaxed.
So I just don't want to think about it, and in northeastern terms, I'll do whatever I want. After the meal, Dong Shanshan took me on a tour of their campus. Wandering left and right, I found a building under construction in front of me. It looked quite old, so I guess it was ready to be torn down. Dong Shanshan told me that this was to tear down the old school building and convert it into a swimming pool.
Originally quite a small matter, I did not take it to heart, but just as I turned around and prepared to continue to shop when suddenly behind me, "ah! Dong Shanshan and I looked back, only to see a civilian worker from the seventh floor of the old building fell down. At that time, we were dumbfounded. Because we both witnessed a tragedy with our own eyes.
Have you ever seen a dead person? I want to ask you again when I write this, I have seen it. To be honest, the first time I saw a dead person I wasn't scared at all, and that was when I was in high school. I rode my bicycle to school in my sophomore year of high school, and I had to pass under an overpass on my way to school because it was late in the winter. I clearly remember that it was five o'clock in the morning, I was in a hurry to go to the congee store next to the school to buy hot soybean milk for Du Feiyu, and when I passed by the overpass bridge, I realized that there was a dark shadow on the bridge, as if it was a human being, and it was playing the swing there. To say that I was also stupid at that time, early in the morning before dawn how can someone play swing on the overpass. I didn't take a closer look and went to school. When I came home from school for dinner, I heard my dad tell me that he found a woman hanging herself on the overpass in the morning.
Crap, I remembered the one who hit the swing. It was only then that I felt the backlash. A cool breeze swished in my neck.
The topic switched back to that time, Dong Shanshan and I were there staring blankly, there were already many students and workers gathered around, to say that there is something to see to see is our great and honorable tradition. The worker is probably hopeless, because when unloading the glass, he lost his footing and fell down. Sprawled on the ground basically a bloody mess, not a few girls students took a look and ran away to vomit, including Dong Shanshan.
I rushed up to pat her back, it's no wonder that the general female eyes can not withstand such a bloody picture, especially the two of us have just rubbed a belly full of wine and rice.
After a while, she had nothing to do, stood up and told me: "You say this is a matter of ah, half a month fell to death two people, who will dare to walk this road at night?"
Two people fell to their deaths in half a month? I asked her what happened, and she told me that the old building was demolished half a month ago, and one person fell to his death that day. It also fell from the seventh floor, and the school was in a state of panic. These two days just a little bit, this is another fall dead, you say this is how evil.
I also feel that something is not right in my heart. Because the first time I noticed this building has a kind of indescribable feeling, Dong Shanshan is still there muttering, I did not listen, but turned back to the seventh floor to look. I felt that the second window from the left on the seventh floor was a bit out of place, as if there was something, but I wasn't sure exactly what it was. Maybe it's because I've studied the Book of Three Purities, my intuition tells me that this matter is definitely not that simple.
